Saturday, December 09, 2006
Ever Apologizing
I've been looking back over my blog(s) and I'm always apologizing. Is that a sign that I'm a wimp or just always stressed out? This week has been really tough. Aside from being sad because I miss Rook so much, I've been really sick again. It's a constant refrain I know. I don't even want to write it so I know you don't want to hear it. I'm always apologizing for not writing back to people or not calling or for not doing something. So.. here's the deal. You all know I've a chronic illness, my patient and my father have cancer, and my Mom has a chronic illness. If you're my friends, I want you to know I love you to pieces and want to do so much more than I can, but I can't keep on with this refrain of explaining and apologizing every time I get behind when I'm always behind. I worry I will hurt the feelings of someone who is important to me or miss something really important going on in your lives. Just know I'm doing the best I can.
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You won't hurt my feelings. I know what it is like to feel totally stressed out on life and unable to keep up with everything, and I don't have nearly the circle of friends you do. I know that you care for your friends and would like nothing better than to keep up with everything that is going on. I also know that I want you to take care of yourself too. Rest when you can, more important, rest when you need to.
No worries here. I am amazed you have written back at all and that you do as much as you do with everything going on. If you weren't ever able to communicate again with us, it would be understandable. I would rather know that you are happy than know that by writing back out of a sense of guilt and obligation you were burning yourself out. I hope you are able to enjoy the holidays.
J
Thank You so much for keeping us apprised here.
i think You might be genuinely surprised at how much Your generosity and kind spirit have built deep reservoirs of affection and understanding in people's hearts.
Please don't place the burden of impossible expectations on Yourself on top of everything else.
Could it be that it is more appropriate that we should be writing and supporting You without expectation. i think so!
Please take really good care of Yourself Lovely Lady and know that our hearts are with You.
robert
Thank you for the update.
Lady Julia please remember to take time out for yourself you are an amazing kind hearted lady. relax where you can..if you can
Hope you have the very best time over the silly season.
Don't worry about us. We will all still care no matter what and we're with You every step of the way. The unrelieved pressure of continually having to cope with the pain and sorrow of others is bad enough without having to deal with Your own too. You are a very cool and strong Lady. Do what You must do to make the best of things. We will be here for You.
Hey, i got a great idea... stop apologizing. Those that know and care about you already understand, and those that don't ... why do you need to expend that extra energy. They'll either understand eventually or not. If they do, you'll know they're actually friends. If they don't, they never were. So stop it already!
HUGS YOU TIGHT
I think I just needed reassurance from my friends and I've heard from most that they completely understand. Thanks for the support.
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